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  • Looking for:
    Przyjaźń, A Date with Serious Intentions, Marriage Minded
  • Stan cywilny:
    Single - Never Married
  • Christian Affiliation:
    Reformed Baptist, Reformed
  • Race:
    Kaukaska
  • Height:
    5' 7"
  • Build:
    Curvy
  • Kolor oczu:
    Zielony
  • Kolor włosów:
    Blond
  • College /University:
    I hope to someday soon attend The Master's University online, and to gain a degree in Biblical Counseling! I believe that this field is a lifelong career and that I want to be equipped to point others to Jesus for their afflictions of soul.
  • Graduation Year:
    2020
  • Level of education:
    Liceum
  • Zatrudnienie:
    Niepełny etat
  • Occupation:
    I'm a sacker at my local grocery store!
  • Company:
    United Supermarkets
  • Dochód:
    00-20k
  • Seeking Ethnicity:
    Any
  • My ideal place to live:
    In a space station
  • My view on smoking:
    I don't smoke and I don't like to be around smokers
  • My view on drinking:
    I don't like being around those who drink
  • On the subject of children:
    I would like to have children one day
  • Tell us about your family. How do you feel about relocating?:
    I love my family. My mom and dad, sister and brother and grandmother are immensely important to me. They raised me on Bible storybooks as a little kid and on pure scripture as I got older. We've read the Bible through every year for about four years I think. My home is a very loving and kind one; you could say that we all love one another and others fiercely. I've only known my church family for two years, but they are such a blessing to me; they help fill in the gaps left by negligent extended family, and they encourage me in Christ and in His Word. To continue to be totally honest with you, I would be loath to leave them. I would submit to my husband's loving direction, but I don't want to leave them.
  • How old were you when you were drawn to Christ and how is your Christian walk these days?:
    I've been made familiar with the premise of the Bible (with storybooks as a young child) and with pure scripture as I got older. I "asked Jesus into my heart" when I was 6, for fear of hell and desire for Heaven. But only when I was 14 and first learning the doctrines of grace in a Pentecostal church (the doctrines of which we didn't agree with at the time, and grew to see as totally false) did I recognize my total sinfulness, my total inability to save myself, and my great need for a savior. It's been made ever clearer each day. I had a stereotypical jerk Calvinist phase where I took pleasure at being a rebel and literally laughed at a friend who was telling the youth group about her speaking in tongues experience. I was unkind. I have since repented and I know now that we as God's children are very adequately equipped to know the correct doctrine and yet be kind and gentle. As to my walk with God through life currently: I'll be watching a video, and they'll curse, use innuendo, or worst, take God's Name in vain, and even though my conscience protests this intaking of people dishonoring God and each other, I'll still watch it because with my remaining sin in my flesh, I want what I want when I want it. This is idolatry, and I hate it. I hate it so much. There's also my remaining pride that loves to feel smart when I can reference Scripture and use big words, and whispers that I'm better than others. By God's grace, lately, I shut those thoughts down when they rear their ugly heads. My love of arguing as if it was a sport often lends itself to sin as well(if it could be done purely for the fun of it without no sin involved, that would be so fun. I love the verbal windings and unwindings). I do not read His Word on my own as much as I should, or even as much as I'd like to; often, it's because I'm lazy, or because a recent and unconfessed sin is hurting my conscience and I'm almost afraid of coming before Him in prayer. I hate this weakness, this sin within me with a passion. "I am not what I ought to be, I am not what I want to be, I am not what I hope to be in another world; but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am." - John Newton Romans 7:21-25 sums it up, as well. God has shown Himself to me through His Word in such a way as to make me love Him. I do not love Him perfectly, or even as I ought to. But i love Him. He caused me to love Him, He is GOOD. He is perfectly good and righteous and just and *holy* and I tremble at His holiness and at the punishment His just wrath would've given my sins, had it not been for Christ's propitiation, and His redeeming and raising of me, to life. He is completely worthy of every bit of my soul and energy that I have to give, and I loathe myself for wasting so much time. I am weak, but He in His steadfastness has loved me and will keep me to the end, making gradually making me more like Himself.
  • How have the Doctrines of Grace changed or affected your life?:
    Oh, they definitely have. The knowledge of my naturally-occurring total depravity and my huge inability to fulfill God's perfect law completely has made me continually look to the perfect Savior Who continually intercedes for me, Who keeps me secure until He brings me to Himself. I know that God's saints are elected from eternity past, by no merit of their own, and because of that, they are unable to deny His grace that calls them by the Holy Spirit through His Word.
  • Do you have a "Quiet Time?" What are you studying?:
    To quote myself from an earlier answer, "I don't love Him as I should". I currently don't read on my own in a steady fashion. I read and discuss scripture nightly with my family as we read through the whole Bible in a year, and I'm endeavoring to stay on a plan to read the whole Bible steadily, on my own, in about 8 months (it would've been done in six months, but I fell behind due to the sin of sloth, see question number 3. By His grace I will grow stronger, He knows I desire it.)
  • Who is your favorite Biblical Character and why?:
    That's a very hard question for me! I love the humility of Mary, and the Christ-like heart and beautiful creativity of David. When Peter sinned/fell short and Jesus rebuked Him, he came running even faster to Him. He felt remorse over his sin, and he loved Christ, even though he knew it was imperfect. I relate. "He said to him the third time, “Simon, son of John, do you love me?” Peter was grieved because He said to him the third time, “Do you love me?” and he said to Him, “Lord, you know everything; You know that I love you.” - John 21:7ab
  • Are you content being single? Why? If not, why?:
    Emphatically no. God designed marriage to be a wonderful, glorifying thing. By His grace given to me, I would be good at it.
  • What are four qualities your friends would attribute to you?:
    (I have plenty of friends who aren't blood-related, but family members know me best) My mom has said that I'm good at loving people, and my best friend would also describe me as loving. My younger friends in middle school (when you've been homeschooled you make friends of all ages) might tell you that I'm talented, or maybe friendly. My grandmother would say that I know the Word very well.
  • What are three things you are most thankful for?:
    My salvation bought and maintained and worked out in me by God, and God alone. My family, whether they be the people in my home or the people in my church or anyone else who I share a bond with across the states or the globe. They build me up and encourage me in Christ through the Word, they are a huge part of what kept me going when I have despaired, and they are my favorite earthly facet of my life. The ability to see, think, breathe, smell. Every beautiful thing there is to behold, whether it be the light in the eyes of a person you love, sunlight shining through the trees onto your face, or singing with the saints when you thought you'd never have a home. "Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change." - James 1:17 Every single good thing to be found comes from our Father, and I thank Him for them.
  • Describe the character and personality traits you enjoy in another person? What are yours?:
    Aside from the most important qualities of genuine love for Christ and a desire/striving for personal holiness, I would say warmth. I love warmth. A warm, kind heart that loves Christ and others with great energy and humility is hugely attractive to me. “Do not imagine that if you meet a really humble man he will be what most people call 'humble' nowadays: he will not be a sort of greasy, smarmy person, who is always telling you that, of course, he is nobody. Probably all you will think about him is that he seemed a cheerful, intelligent chap who took a real interest in what you said to him. If you do dislike him it will be because you feel a little envious of anyone who seems to enjoy life so easily. He will not be thinking about humility: he will not be thinking about himself at all.” - C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity ^^ this is what I find attractive, and it is what I want/strive to be. A real love for children (and a desire to homeschool them) and elderly, and heck, everybody around you is a beautiful thing to behold. An ability to be goofy together that comes from not taking yourself too seriously is also important to me. I would also love someone to sing with.
  • Other than your parents, who has been the most influential person in your life and how?:
    My grandmother, pointing me to Christ, loving me, and challenging me is someone who has influenced me greatly. This might sound a bit strange, but, my ex-fiance has taught me so much. In him, I saw the effects of emotional abuse where there should've been love and freedom. He showed me the absence of love in his soul, and I tried with all my love to fill it with mine. I saw what happened when the language of a family was hate, not love, like I was used to. I learned so much about abuse, sin, faithfulness, and what a relationship needs to survive.
  • What contributed to your previous relationship/marriage ending?:
    We went into the relationship with all intentions geared toward honoring God, and we did so. I was respectful and kind towards the whole family. His parents didn't appreciate how I noticed their unkindness towards Him, and, they hated me and my family because I knew first and secondhand how they really were. They truly hated me, and I believe that they hated him. Their abuse towards him was far-reaching, and due to the influence of their narcissistic verbal abuse, he ditched me in order to gain peace in his home.
  • How long have you been on your own since and what did you to do get through it?:
    I've been on my own for over a year, with one casual online dating relationship that lasted a couple of weeks, and several attractions/crushes. After leaving me without a word, I fell into a deep depression. I watched shows with unholy language and content, barely caring. I was completely numb. The Lord never left me, and brought me through by the means of good advice, faithful family, many tears, and by His sovereign power. I am now completely healed of it. My love isn't easily stopped, it took the Lord showing me a couple of times that it truly was over for me to accept it. I'm so glad that He delivered me from the sin that emanates from that family. I pray that He saves them.
  • Favorite lines from movies, poems, songs, hymns or Scripture you would like to tell us about?:
    "O Lord, everything good in me is due to You. The rest is my fault." - Augustine "Captivated by His beauty, Worthy tribute haste to bring. Let His peerless worth constrain thee, Crown Him now unrivaled King. What can strip the seeming beauty, From the idols of the earth? Not a sense of right or duty, But the sight of peerless worth. Captivated by His beauty, Worthy tribute haste to bring. Let His peerless worth constrain thee, Crown Him now unrivaled King. Tis that look that melted Peter, 'Tis that face that Stephen saw, 'Tis that heart that wept with Mary, Can alone from idols draw." - Hast Thou Heard Him, Seen Him, Known Him by Indelible Grace Ephesians 2:1-10, 1 John 4:19, Romans 12:9, Phil 4:8, the whole cannon of scripture tbh
  • What type of work do/did you do?:
    For 3 years, I worked seasonal stints as a high-end retail salesperson, demonstrating products to the customers! Currently I'm a sacker at my grocery store! I'm hoping to work up to being a cashier eventually! When I move to the adjacent bigger city, I hope to work at a bookstore or a bakery.
  • How long have you been/were you in that line of work? Do/you enjoy it?:
    I do enjoy it! I genuinely love talking to the customers, I try to make their day better during the short trip from the checkout line to their cars. I enjoy speaking in Spanish to Spanish-speaking customers, they're surprised and happy when I start talking! I like the high energy of my work environment, and I appreciate the acquaintances I've made there! I like feeling a part of my community.
  • Do you have any life-long goals? What are they?:
    I want to be a counselor, helping people understand themselves and the people around them on the foundation of scripture, pointing them to Christ as their healer and their Lord. This is something I want to do my whole life, whether i get paid for it or not. I want to be a wife Loving my husband with all my energy, loving only Christ more. I want to build him up and encouraging him in Christ, to make him happy and be a gentle place for Him to rest, whoever he is. I want to be a mother Raising children to love Christ and His Word and be fearless in the pursuit of His kingdom, in holiness, righteousness, and in abundant familial, Christ-like love. And ultimately, I want to glorify God with all that I have.
  • Where were you born and where have you traveled?:
    I was born in Lubbock Texas at 4:30 AM; I believe that I am a wee-hours-owl as a result. I've been through Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama, and Georgia on the way to Tennessee, my dad's home state. I loved it, I love traveling and seeing all those trees.
  • How do you enjoy your leisure time? What do you do for recreation?:
    I interact with my friends on social media, I collect inspiration for my art on Pinterest, I play music (on the piano, ukulele, and guitar), I sing (very loud), and I have deep conversations with my mom, usually regarding the human experience in light of scripture, or theology, or love.
  • Is there anything that the questionnaire didn’t cover?:
    Not really, you've been extremely thorough! I love writing, so I hope that this literal tome of a bio hasn't been *too* much of an assault!
  • O mnie:
    See the above questions and answers, I've basically poured my soul out for you to see!

    my favorite pastors/teachers include John MacArthur, RC Sproul, Alistair Begg, and more!
  • Moje zainteresowania:
    Music, singing, reading, writing (nonfiction), talking, debating (formally), talking about theology, dancing (not very well, but it's massive fun), making art (digitally or traditionally), going to church, film analysis, scripture-centered psychology, listening to sermons, eating/making food, driving, biking, being in nature, and the list goes on, you see
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